i think my kid is back…. and other stuff
yes she’s back. leah’s back.
i hope i’m not jinxing it. for the last week she’s been a cranky, teething, rashing, puking, “don’t put me down!”, “don’t hold me!” mess. last night she played and laughed, and today and tonight she seemed much better as well. i need to remember next time she gets like this that she’ll come back. i got so scared my sweet happy leah was gone forever. i should know better.
other than that, we’ve been busy making driveways and destroying yucky party sheds (to be replaced with a fun patio area), enjoying no cable, surfing the internet way too much, washing dishes, trying to fix yucky attitudes, and grow through trials. i’m not doing the best on those last two, but one foot in front of the other, enjoy the blessings i have, focus on the now, rinse, repeat, rinse, repeat repeat. i can’t sit in the mud and cry that i’m not pregnant, but i often want to and sometimes still do.
okay, here’s the good, the blessing, there is modern medical testing, and they found out two things “wrong” with me (yes, there are many more, no smart comments….) first, I can’t process folic acid right (MTHFR gene defect) and second, I have two defective blood clotting genes (PAI-1), so my body can’t break down clots right. The link I have on PAI-1 is very technical, but very interesting. so, regular vitamins, extra folic acid, extra B vitamins, a baby aspirin for now and daily heparin shots if i get pregnant again. yep, personal information on the internets, but maybe someone will search for these gene defects like they have for leah’s hand and i can encourage others. it’s a mixed bag, i’m glad i know what to do next time, but also a little sad that the easy, textbook, carefree pregnancy that is oh so prevalent in magazines, media, and my mind isn’t really a reality in my life. you won’t see me on TLC’s “I didn’t know I was pregnant” BUT, we can deal with this, will deal with this, and it’s what is meant to be. i seriously thought the tests would come back with nothing, and i don’t really need a WHY, but i have one now, at least medically. one foot in front of the other, again and again…
anyways, time for a movie. here’s a picture of the monkey. or two… i can’t resist. there’s new ones up in the june gallery.
grandpa t bought her sweet cowboy boots from texas…
“BALL!!” yep, she looks like a real little girl here…
June 18th, 2009 at 9:51 pm
Hi Hannah, if you ever want to talk about the infertility issues I’m here to listen. I also have MTHFR, and that is one of the reasons I miscarried 3 times (unfortunately they wouldn’t test me until I had 3). As you can see, the folic acid worked and now I have my little Reese! The only yucky part is I had to take 4 folic acid pills a day, and I can’t swallow pills… I went through alot of apple sauce!
June 19th, 2009 at 8:18 pm
hi there! i saw that you posted my site (prudent advice) and i was checking out your blog…OMG i have the same clotting disorder! it took me four pregnancies to figure it out and take the Lovenox shots and have my daughter. its hard but its not impossible to deal with. XO jaime
June 19th, 2009 at 11:21 pm
Hannah, I am so happy that you have answers. I know it would have been ok if the tests came back with nothing, but now you know and can take the necessary steps. God is good in providing medical knowledge.Love, SB
p.s. Leah’s boots are AWESOME!
June 21st, 2009 at 8:04 pm
Leah is such a cutie in those pics!! Love those boots!!