So yeah….
Ever been riding your bike, going up the hill, having a great time and then the chain falls off and you fall on your face, feel like an idiot and then spend the next who knows how long getting that chain back on? Well, my chain fell off. Again.
About three weeks ago I got that first double line (yippee!) pregnancy test, followed by the same result the next week. On 5/20 we were scheduled, all good to go and see our baby. Well, this past weekend, things started to go bad, and this morning a doctor’s visit confirmed the loss. What should have been there was not. Don’t know if there ever was or if it was gone already. Doesn’t make it any better.
We are sad, disappointed, and everything else rolled into one, but know God is in control, and that He has something GOOD planned, somewhere down the line, we’re just not there yet. Last time, we ended up with Leah on the way a very short time thereafter. I’m not saying that is what is in the cards this time, just something good will come of this, and that is what my hope is now. So, we’re cuddling our baby girl, holding each other, and walking on into the sunshine of the good we have right now.
May 13th, 2009 at 8:45 pm
I’m sorry for your loss. You are right, G-d has a plan and sometimes we aren’t in the loop, but in the end it all makes sense. I am here if you need to talk.
Tell Leah that Gracyn said Happy Birthday!
May 13th, 2009 at 10:53 pm
Very insightful analogy. Allow God it give you strength, rest in Him.
Lots of love,
Sarabeth
May 14th, 2009 at 4:55 pm
God’s timing is perfect. we enjoyed being with you all last weekend! we pray for you and the family often.